What is a "Caterpillar" you may ask? Well there are plenty of definitions of a caterpillar, but my definition is ... well, me, as I am right now. I am 22 years old and obese. But that doesn't mean I have to be this way forever. However, up until a few months ago, I thought it meant that exactly.
I have always struggled with my weight, since before I could remember. I was bullied in middle school for it, and while I wasn't bullied in high school, I know my weight kept me from doing a lot of things I wanted to do. But I never thought I could do anything about it. So I continued to struggle through it, doing diets here and there with my mother and grandmother. The downside of these diets is that I was never mentally in the right place to lose weight.. so I continually failed.
So a terrible pattern began to arise. I'd diet for a bit.. lose weight.. then fall off the wagon. Because of the failure I'd eat my emotions and gain all the weight back. I finally came to the conclusion that I wouldn't be able to do anything about and for years, I ate whatever I wanted and did whatever I wanted.
Then, one day, I randomly decided to do something about it. It's like a switched was turned on in my mind that told me I don't need to be the way I was forever.
It's been 2 months since I joined Jenny Craig and I've lost almost 20 pounds and I'm still going strong. I've had a few weak moments and I'm still struggling with a few things. But I've got my eye on the prize and I'm giving myself as many goals as possible. Goals that are easy to reach. Every 10 pounds I am getting myself a nice little treat, something to remind myself of what I am doing. I want to make a pattern of each of these treats having something to do with a Butterfly, which I want to use as my mascot.
Well I want to wrap up this first post by thanking all of you for reading this and for your support. I will do my best to update this as often as possible. Hopefully if you are following this for inspiration, I'm gonna do my best to put as much inspiring thoughts and ideas in here. I am not the best writer in the world.. but hopefully you can read this without pulling your hair out.
Thank you all again!
Marcia ~ This is so beautiful, so openly vulnerable. I love that you are so honest and open about your struggles. You are so brave ! You are gonna do this, one baby step at a time. Never forget how beautiful you are in your heart, and how many people surround you with love and support. You are truly an inspiration !
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Teresa
You never cease to AMAZE me my Beautiful Daughter <3 I Always knew you had it in you to achieve whatever you put your mind to, but as a mother it is very difficult to have to wait for your children to have their *AHA!* moment. I am so Very proud of you for not only doing what you are doing, but for sharing your struggles and success with others so that it might help and inspire some young woman or man for that matter :) to finally reach their *AHA* moment! I love you more than words can express <3 <3 <3
ReplyDeleteMarcia, I am not even sure you will know who I am. I went to school with your mom and still keep in touch via FB!!! I just want you to know that I am proud of what you are doing. I have been where you are. I had to also have that "aha" moment before it actually clicked. I had tried so many times before but none worked until then. I proceeded to lose 80 lbs and kept it off for over 10 years. I gained 50 back when my mom was sick and have once again managed to lose it. It is HARD work, but so worth the effort. Keep up the good work and if you need anyone to yell at when you are hungry or overwhelmed, ask for tips, or anything let me know...Don't look at it as a diet but a happy healthy lifestyle change!!!
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